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Bye-Bye, July

My life continues to get more and more complicated, even though things are going well in basically all aspects.

The Cop is officially away. We chatted a bit the few days before he left while he was out of town, but other than that I have been cut off. I did some Facebook stalking that I’m not proud of, mostly because it wasn’t so much of him but of girls who were tagged with him in recent photos. From a 5k. Because I am totally insane.

It was fruitless stalking, of course. I also had a cryptic conversation about The Cop with a mutual friend. It was good because I was making some pretty passive aggressive comments about men/dating/his friends. I know he found it funny because we used to have these conversations in high school. I’m mostly still happy that I refrained from ever texting him and asking if The Cop was interested in anyone. So now our mutual friend knows, but oh well? He would have figured it out eventually on his own anyway.

So it’s a bummer that The Cop is gone, but I will live. Because I have plenty to keep me busy/entertained. Continue reading

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“Just Tell Him You Like Him!”

Haha, BFF. This is advice my best friend gave me today, after hearing me fawn over The Cop for most of last night and then again today via text. By 9:17 this morning, I was already being told to just tell him I like him because I was talking about him that much.

“Riiiiiight. Like that would ever happen.”

What is my problem? I am totally, 100% against exposing my feelings directly to someone whom I have known for years. Maybe it’s the fact that we haven’t talked in a few years. Maybe it’s because there’s been a sudden shift in my point of view and ideas about him. Maybe it’s because I’m left wondering, “why did I never see The Cop this way before? Or did I, and I just didn’t know it?”

So while I’m dealing with those thoughts, I’m also thinking about how The Cop is leaving town soon to be un-see-able but not totally un-reachable while also being so busy. For four months.

FOUR MONTHS.

alice gifWe all know I’m going to be sitting at my desk, twirling my hair, thinking about his arms.

This fact of life is leaving me being a little irrational–like, really, if he’s off doing his cop things is he really going to be meeting and falling for some other girl? No. Probably not, unless she is also at the police academy and then maybe that would be a good fit for him? I don’t know.

But instead of just being like “listen, I think you are swell and I’d like to stay in touch while you’re gone and I hope that I don’t annoy you and then maybe we can hang out again when you’re back,” I’m having quiet, internal freak outs about whether or not he realized I like him or if he thinks I’m just weird? Continue reading

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I do not fuck around with arachnids

text convo

So, this happened today. It started as a totally normal convo that I was stressed out about because it only took his six hours to respond. But, you know, it’s not like I should expect him to answer me stat because, like, that is irrational for a number of reasons.

Anyway, I frequently text The Cop about spiders, but then My BFF and I saw there there is a FUCKING STANDOFF happening like two blocks from my house. It’s insane! I’m a little freaked out by it, but I’m also not going to be one of those people who stands on the street corner watching it go down.

Naturally, I texted The Cop demanding answers. When he didn’t respond, I was texting a friend of ours who also lives nearby to let him know that The Cop has left me to the wolves (and also to update him because I don’t think is around but he totally needs to know that his house is being protected by two cop cars.

Anyway, this is as close to saying something that indicates that I might care about him in any way, shape, or form. Telling him not to die is the best I can do. 😦

Fortunately, there have still not been any gun shots fired. I don’t think that’s going to stop me from lying awake tonight wondering if The Cop is OK until I know that this standoff is over.

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